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Thursday, 14 January 2010

The Bright Orange Sign

At 6:23pm yesterday, M and I pulled up in front of Starbucks to pick up V. We were definitely going to be late to our class. All three of us were in the Princeton MCAT prep course and class started at 6:30pm. We pulled into the parking lot at 6:30pm, and we knew we were going to be a little late. "Oh well, it's not a big deal. We'll be fine," I said as we pressed the "G" button in the elevator.

Walking to the classroom we saw a bright orange sign that said, "KAPLAN MCAT COURSE IN RM 256". All three of commented on how that sign didn't pertain to us because we were in the Princeton MCAT course. We walked ahead and walked straight into the classroom we had met in for the previous two class sessions. As soon as we took a step in, we realized we were definitely in the wrong place. We had just walked into room 256. The same room 256 that the Kaplan MCAT class was meeting in.

We backed out slowly and turned around and walked back up the hallway before bursting into laughter. How could we have been so dumb? There was a bright orange sign right outside room 256 that said "KAPLAN MCAT COURSE" and we chose to completely ignore it and make complete fools of ourselves. I guess that's what we get for being late and not paying attention. I definitely got a good laugh out of it! I guess I'll be leaving for class with ample time to find my classroom and paying attention to bright orange signs from now on.

Tuesday, 12 January 2010

first day back

Spring semester has started and it's already as hectic as ever. How did I think I could handle all this when I signed up for classes? Class all during the day, then the MCAT class in the evening, and then 3 hour dance practice at night. After leaving in the morning, I only come back to my room for an hour to eat and get more stuff. FML. I hate this.

I'm giving up my social life this semester.

I'm not doing dance next year...the captains are ridiculous and dumb. I can't deal with that shit next year too. What do they think? That we're all filthy rich and have nothing better to do than dance until 2 in the morning? I am here at this university to get an education. If I can't do my homework and go to class because of dance...that's just wrong.

My best friend from home is visiting. I feel bad for him. I dragged him to all my classes today because I obviously couldn't skip on the first day. I think he was really bored. He also didn't eat anything. I worry about and for him. I hope he had some fun while he was here. I ditched him after 6pm because I had class and dance practice. I'm such a terrible friend.

seriously...fml. Just F...M...L.

Sunday, 03 January 2010

Currently
Wake Up Sid
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Resolutions

1. Be a better student -- this means going to class every day, doing all homework assignments, studying for tests well in advance, etc.

2. Be healthy -- drinking less coffee, eating to live (not because I'm stressed and have nothing better to do), exercising regularly, sleeping enough every night

3. Be kinder -- I've noticed I've become meaner. I need to learn to be more patient, listen (I mean really listen) to what others are telling me, say nice things to people

4. Document my life -- take pictures and write regularly. It helps put things in perspective and will help me realize how far I've come.

5. Do things that make me happy -- I sometimes have a tendency to do things because I feel obligated to or because no one else will step up and take the responsibility. I'm going to do things because I want to and it'll make me happy.

I think those are my five main things I want to do this year. I even have a plan for each of them...hopefully I can do it. I am totally motivated to make these things happen. I just need to stay motivated and not lose sight of these goals.

Monday, 28 December 2009

Currently
The Lion King (Disney Special Platinum Edition)
By Matthew Broderick, Jeremy Irons, James Earl Jones, Whoopi Goldberg, Jonathan Taylor Thomas
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Hakuna Matata

I watched "The Lion King" today. What great memories! I love that movie and my sister and I know all the lines from the movie. It was good to watch it again. It reminded me of the saying "Hakuna Matata".

The year is almost done. I'm just going to learn from all the mistakes I've made this year and move on. The past is the past, and I can only learn from it. I am not going to get hung up on something I could have done better. Fact is, it's over. There's nothing I can do to change the past. It's better to just move on and make sure it doesn't happen again in the future.

I need to come up with some New Year's resolutions. I'm trying to think of what I really want to accomplish next year and what my life's goals truly are. I need to figure out what will make me happy.

I recently had a very interesting conversation with my parents. My mother, who I thought had been pushing me to become a doctor and go into medicine, pretty much said that medical school would take a long time and that she was worried that it would push back starting a family too late. She was worried that if I wait until after med school, that I would get old and would never get married. She told me to take the MCAT and apply to med schools, take the GRE and apply to grad schools, and apply for jobs. She wants me to keep my options open and see what happens. I agree that I should keep my options open, but next year is going to be really busy and tough if I have to apply to so many different things. I think it's cute. My mom wants grandchildren...haha. I don't know how I feel about the fact that my parents are thinking about my marriage already. I haven't even graduated yet.

I told my family that I want to go into nursing. A master's in nursing takes two years and I could then take the exam to be an RN. My parents don't approve. I then said I really wanted to take a year off after senior year and then figure out what to do. My dad said he wasn't completely against it (meaning he didn't advice that I do that). I didn't even bother telling my mom.

Monday, 21 December 2009

Currently
Complications: A Surgeon's Notes on an Imperfect Science
By Atul Gawande
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Survey...for fun?

TEN things you wish you could say to ten people right now:
1. I love you and life will be okay. Just calm down.
2. I wish I could live up to your expectations.
3. I know I'm not want you expected, but this is who I am.
4. I can trust you with everything. Thanks for listening.
5. You need to let the world see the real you. I'm sure people would like you even more if you did.
6. Get over it. I did.
7. Please don't think I'm stupid. I'm really not. Really.
8. I don't hate you.
9. I wish I could find my special someone.
10. I admire you and your determination.

NINE things about yourself:
1. It takes years to get to know the real me.
2. I like dance and I put it too high on my list for my own good.
3. I randomly get addicted to peanut butter.
4. Secretly, I think I'm not good enough.
5. I like swimming.
6. I want to get my ears pierced again.
7. I have small feet.
8. I'm getting glasses/contacts.
9. I actually have no idea what I'm doing with my life.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1. Say I'm beautiful.
2. Say you think I'm funny.
3. Say you like spending time with me.
4. Give me a hug when I least expect it.
5. Make me smile.
6. Sit comfortably in a silent room with me.
7. Dance.
8. Teach me something new.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. #&(%, I screwed up.
2. How am I going to fix this?
3. What am I going to do with my life now?
4. What will my parents think?
5. I'm a terrible role model.
6. I want coffee.
7. I just want to sleep.

SIX things you do before you go to bed:
1. Brush my teeth.
2. Wash my face.
3. Check my e-mail.
4. Set a few alarms.
5. Tell myself that I will wake up.
6. Turn the lights off.

FIVE people who mean a lot to you:
1. My sister.
2. My dad.
3. My mom.
4. My roommates.
5. My sorority sisters.

FOUR things you’re wearing right now:
1. T-shirt.
2. Sweatpants.
3. Earrings.
4. Hair ties.

THREE songs that fit your life perfectly:
1. "Shattered" by O.A.R.
2. "Fireflies" by Owl City
3. "Broken" by Lifehouse

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. Find my true passion.
2. Get married.

ONE confession:
1. I'm afraid of not being good enough. I'm afraid of failure.